Another year gone by. It's time for change to make its presence felt in our lives once again, not like it is ever absent anyway. It's 5.46 a.m., and a few minutes ago, all I could hear was the sound of the deafening silence that surrounds me (and this once noisy dorm building and our once disturbingly noisy floor) and the birds chirping outside. The silence also amplifies the sound of the electricity running through the lights in the room, something which I never really found myself paying any attention to earlier. It all got too silent and depressing, and I needed to hear another human voice, so music is my fastest and closest option. The sky outside my window is this slowly changing into a nice dark blue, Batman's purple and black cape is no longer the veil between my eyes and the sky.
It feels like just yesterday that we all moved in here and today, our once liveliest floor in the building is dead as dead can be, there's not a single sound of anyone around, I cannot imagine not living in this room in Saugeen-Maitland Hall, it feels like I've lived here forever. I've seen a few sunrises but so many sunsets from this window of my room, each sunset that painted the sky a different combination of pink, orange and red, and occasionally even a dull grey in the winter. Even at 7 every morning, there would be people around, and that was the time I would have to be up every other day to prep up for my 8.30 a.m. class, I swear I'm never taking an 8.30 a.m class in my life ever again, it's just too early for me.
I'm not the best person at accepting changes, it all gets too overwhelming for me. I feel crazy and emotionally drained when I have to deal with major changes in my life. I call it my 3 stages: first, I get crazily nostalgic and I become my own slide projector reviewing the wonderful events of the recent past and wondering why I have to even go through with this change if everything was working so perfectly; second - I'm already going through with the change and I think I'm liking it or not liking it ; and third - the change is changing now and I begin to miss the original change. Well, I'm not sure if anyone could understand that other than me, lol! I'm so lost right now. Is that a slight pink in the midst of all that blue in the sky that I see?! Oh yes, I guess those are just the clouds that have a slight trace of pink in them. No matter how much we as human beings advance scientifically one or nothing can ever replicate the colours that Nature has eternally patented itself with the creation of.
It's so unusual...there's no noise, I miss the incessant screaming and craziness that was almost like the aura of this building. Wherever are the sources of this noise? Whatever happened to all of it?
Seasons go by, the leaves wither away and soon they grow back too, but among all the seasons in our heart, the summer's the best and the spring is the hardest, such is life, simple with many complexities; both, mysteriously beautiful and beautifully mysterious...and what's more, there's no greater challenge than living every day and every moment of each day to the fullest, and yet it is all so simple if we take the time to give it a closer look with a keen eye.
