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Every time I happen to see pictures of natural beauty such as these ones, I just seem to feel a strange connection to each of these scenes. These pictures aren't just beautiful, they seem sublime enough to fill my senses with a feeling that surpasses the definitions of just 'beautiful' or 'awesome'.
This picture on the top-left side may seem grey, lifeless, and may hardly seem to hold anything of beauty in its frame at the first sight, but when I look at it, I feel that this 'picture' is more than just a photo, it has a soul, a certain empyrean life that cannot be perceived with physical senses, it is just there, for us to absorb, to just feel. It has a story to tell each of us, something we may never know. I do not know to which geographic mass on this planet this scenery belongs, but it does'nt matter to me because I feel a connection to these pictures, the places that lie within these frames, and several other such still-life yet views that are full of life. I feel a deep connection to them, because they seem to be reaching out to us, to tell us stories of ourselves, of this cosmos that we would have never known and would never know anytime in our series of lifetimes. They sing songs that just transcend any music, anywhere. If only I could visit all these places and absorb all the experiences they have to offer to the eyes of my soul!
.....I felt like I was drunk on a bottle of nostalgia and memories, and I was so high on them!! lol
Well, I haven't still overcome my old self. I'm still constantly reminded of the wonderful days I spent at CNA-Q in the past 10 months by everything that I do. All this nostalgia that constantly buzzes about my brain like a bee feels like a dull ache in my head that's refusing to go away, only, this ache is not painful, not hurtful, not negative at all. Is anyone else as sentimental as me? I wonder!! I still have my college email account, so I can at least log in there and feel like a part of the CNA-Q sphere even today, till the day I leave. In fact, I just did that sometime ago, I went to my college inbox, I looked at all the emails that my instructors used to send us students and all the announcements that used to be sent to all students, and each of these emails represents a memory that will only stay in my head and in my life as part of my 'past'...ouch, what a negatively powerful word! Somehow, I can't blame anybody or anything for any of this. It's some part of me that wished for all this, moving away, I mean! It's not like it's something bad, but right now, it doesn't seem very pink and peachy to me. I made this choice, but is it possible that people wish for something in the beginning with all their heart and when they actually get their wish, they find that it was all so wrong? A part of my mind is always wondering about this these days. I was optimistic earlier, and somehow, when it comes to this matter, I cannot drag myself to any sort of positive thinking, in other words, I just cannot pull my face towards the front, towards the daylight. I'm looking behind, I can see everything wonderful that has happened to me in these few months, all the wonderful people I met here and just about everything here that made me not want to leave this place. It has almost become like a second home to me. The perfect way to describe my situation in a nutshell is that I'm moving forwards with my face turned backwards and looking at it, it's like I'm stuck between backward and forward. I know about Time being the best healer and all that jazz, but what about right now? This very moment? Well, guess what, it just passed, and of course, it won't ever be back, every single word takes some time, and all that time has passed, and will of course, never ever come back, we age with Time, we grow young, we grow old, everything else seems pointless right now! So leave me alone with my memories and come back later to check on my humble blog, if you're lucky, you might see something happier than nostalgic graffiti in this space! ;)
