Some Thought Butterflies In My Head

Why does the grass always have to seem greener on the other side? It's been around 2 weeks since I joined the University of Western Ontario in London, Ontario, Canada. The first week I was here, I felt like I was the only person in the world, that's what homesickness does to you. Coming from a world where people were always around me to a point where it annoyed me to a place where everything's newer than the newest thing in the Universe was a huge leap, it was a decision I had made...to take this leap. I missed everything from the tiniest cell of an ant in Qatar to the huge sky that blanketed the tiny world called Qatar. So in between the cell of an ant and the huge sky, what I missed the most were the people there- family, friends and my house, oh yeah, and the college I spent 10 months in, from September 2004 through June 2005. Quoting Bryan Adams, "Those Were the Best Days of My Life" so far. I don't really know what it was that I missed about college, but I know one reason why I did- my friends. They made college seem like wonderland. There are so many special days which seemed so normal at that time, but looking back, each day was so precious in its own way. Somehow, the most obvious and clichéd statements are the facts of my life- Time flies like an arrow (Groucho Marx), and 'All good things must come to an end', and many more such statements and quotes.

99% of us wish we could turn back Time and just let it freeze for a while. Each moment of our lives, especially when we're in the middle of having the time of our lives seems like the best moment ever, and as each second ticks away, the next moment seems so much better than the previous one. But, when the music stops and the clock strikes twelve, everything that happened seems like such an illusion, we begin to doubt our own conciousness- did all those precious moments ever happen to us or were they just part of some huge magical web of dreams? Mayhaps, instead of trying to invent something extremely technological, we should switch over to creating something that can trap all those moments which come into our lives that mean so much more than anything else in our lives, the moments which define our lives and add all the colour and sparkle to it, and more than anything else, which make life worth living.

When I got here to university, I totally detested the place, I just felt like I needed to see a familiar face somewhere. I imagined how relieved I would be to just find someone I knew, a familiar face, from the crowd, but Life is never what we expect it will be, it just throws these priceless little surprises wrapped in the ugliest of wrappers, not always the pink and blue wrappers with little hearts and teddy bears we expect them to come in. Quoting my friend Huda- 'Don't ever hate something that's good for you', I guess that is really true in so many ways, who has seen tomorrow, who has known it......maybe I'm here for a bigger reason than just education, which I will probably not know now. It seems a little weird saying this at this point in Time, but then again, who knows?!

To see a World in a grain of sand, And a Heaven in a wild flower, Hold Infinity in the palm of your hand, And Eternity in an hour
- William Blake